Bitch & Wine

2005-10-30T13:52:00.000-05:00

my lunch. beef tripe medley rice noodle soup.

2005-10-30T13:39:00.000-05:00

my lunch companion today. i wish sometimes that i could bring my grandma out to lunch and chat over congee....

2005-10-30T13:35:00.000-05:00

normally chinatown is ugly, dirty, and ghetto.. but today, it was beautiful and full of life.

2005-10-30T13:32:00.000-05:00

an impossibly gorgeous day in chinatown...

2005-10-17T11:24:00.000-04:00

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2005-10-14T12:20:00.000-04:00

i love gam mee ok.

Things are happening...

2005-10-06T16:33:00.000-04:00

im a little excited about the prospect of making a big salary jump in the next few months (it's about time rite?). Either that or a jump into something completely different. nothing concrete yet but the wheels are in motion. i've got my feet wedged in quite a few doors right now. and it was also nice to hear on NY1 this morning that it is now officially an Employee's Market. People are hiring finally!! Two of my coworkers just got a massive $30K pay raise just by switching firms. How awesome is that! So I'm very hopeful.=)

So, it sure would be nice to finally earn a lawyer's living! although i will miss my boss. he has been like a father figure to me. he really has taught me everything i know. But I am SO ready to move on.

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2005-09-25T23:05:00.000-04:00

2005-09-25T12:50:00.000-04:00

people still rob banks? it seems like such an antiquated crime...

Dinner with Mom

2005-09-18T00:26:00.000-04:00

I hate to sound like one of those kids who are constantly ashamed and embarassed by the things their parents do - whether it be uncool, low-class, or tacky behavior. But i'll just come out and say it - I am always mortified by my mother's behavior.

Not only does she frequently engage in all 3 types of behavior in public, but she likes act in a very derogatory manner towards everyone ---the maitre'd, the waiter, the manager, and just random innocent bystanders. I'm not sure why she is the way she is. She likes to put people in their place even when she has no right to do so. She really likes to degrade people in public by screaming at them. And her all time favorite, is calling out the manager to bitch him out in front of all the patrons while demanding a full refund because of the "tasteless and poor quality food" their "skill-less chef" created.

I used attempt to calm her down in my "serenity now" voice. But that seems to peeve her off even more, causing her to raise her already shrill voice and shout more derogatory things in her broken english. So now i just sit there, stare down at my feet, as flustered people move about us, and pray to god i never show my face there again.

2005-09-15T13:27:00.000-04:00

@babydots on the first day of football.. arent they cute?????

life....

2005-09-13T00:09:00.000-04:00

is coming to a head lately. i am usually really good at handling stress. hell i've been doing it since I was born. Stress growing up with mom was probably worse than the stress i feel these days. And yet now... every now and i then i feel as if im hanging by a thin thread.

I guess its a combination of many things at once....pressure to have kids within the next 3 yrs (i.e. use it or lose it - meaning my ovaries); i'm turning 30 and can't even conceive of getting married while all my friends have begun the next stage of their lives; my career has stagnated and has begun to fester in its pathetic quagmire; and.... i guess mostly career stuff.

I've been working really hard for a very long time...since i was 20 ive been working towards a goal which i still have yet to achieve....and its been almost 10 years....very discouraging....people tell me it takes time... but i look back on my life... and all i see is the time that has passed.

...ive tried to do everything the best i could and yet nothing seems to work out for me...in fact the opposite occurs. murphy's law seems to apply to me in almost all situations. the result is that my financial situation is shameful, with my school loan payments doubling up, and my salary capped by a firm run by partners who don't know how to appreciate quality hard work.

im ambivalent about my love life. without a firm foundation on my career, I am unable to focus on my love life and have passion about it. and also....vice versa. what a vicious cycle.

ok end rant. i am not going to let myself feel this way anymore.

2005-09-09T10:20:00.000-04:00

the perfect post-court hangover cure:-D

2005-09-09T09:40:00.000-04:00

i was at an entertainment industry party last nite til 2am. i am now in pain as i sit in court. more on this later....:.[:]

dreaming of europe

2005-08-30T10:41:00.000-04:00

I’ve been thinking a lot about taking a trip to Europe by myself. Without a boy.

I’d definitely wouldn’t mind going with a girlfriend or my sister...but I don’t think anyone has the money or the time. A xanga friend, neutrogena, had recently taken a trip to Spain alone as well. It sounds fun and exciting - being in a strange world, feeling so lost, and just trying to find your way around.... Oh wait a second. I already feel that way here. =P

Two places I really want to check out: Barcelona and Rome. Which should be interesting since I have never taken either Spanish or Italian. I did take 5 years of Latin but they don’t call it a "dead" language for nothing. I know it sounds really stupid but I really want to go check out the Appian Way (or Via Appia) - thats the pic above....

I learned all about in Latin class so now I want to go check it out. And of course all the roman architecture etc. As for Spain, I just want to go pig out on some tapas and sangria. But i'm pretty broke now with all the wedding stuff... maybe next year....

Happy Birthday to my Baby Sister Marn!

2005-08-21T23:42:00.000-04:00

Sis' fiance/sugar daddy Dave was sweet enough to surprise sis by flying me in so i could join them in a wedding shower thrown for them by their coworkers (hawaiian luau themed!)...

A delicious decadent dinner at Joel with their close friends and neighbors...(you can't tell from this pic but my sis is in alot of pain at the time due to migraine + strep throat)

And a fun and exciting day of wall climbing!!! That's sis....poor sis - she got strep throat and was such a trooper - she sported a painful migraine and throat pain when climbing this wall!!!

And thats me!

And last but not least....a weekend of sleeping in with my favorite chihuahua.....

Who's the baby?!?!?!?!!

Grimaldi's in Brooklyn

2005-08-18T21:34:00.000-04:00

Think that's a line to get into some hot new club? Nope. Thats the line to get into Grimaldis - known for its thin crust pizza. Luckily V J and I got there early and only had to wait 10 minutes.

This is the view from the bathroom line.

We got two small pies: one with mushroom, sausage & onion and one with pepperoni and basil. Gotta admit - pretty fucking good.

Grimaldi's is right by the river in Brooklyn.

Thats the view of South Street Seaport from across the river.

To the right is River Cafe which is known for its great view, food, and romantic setting.

The brooklyn Bridge at Dusk. Gorgeous!

Fried Baby Herring at Zipa Zape

2005-08-17T09:56:00.000-04:00

MMMM.....It's like eating French Fries....but not.

Got these as a Special at Zipi Zape - a dinky little tapas place in Williamsburg, Brooklyn (1st stop out of Manhattan on the L Train.). The tapas there is cheap compared to other tapas places i've been to. The Sangria is pretty good - they only serve white but it's much better than any white sangria i've ever had.

Tapas i tried:

Quail (tastes like philipino adobo - MMMM); $4
chicken liver pate (it was better at Schillor's), $1.50
Jamon Serrano - this was AWESOME! $8.50
Chorizo - this was also AWESOME $8.50
white asparagus with mayonaisse - a little soggy but still quite delish $6.50
Fried Baby Herring (see above) - tastes like something my mom used to make! Very yum!! But the serving was as big as Super Sized Fries!! (???$$)
Some kinda fried Croquette with Ham in it with some tomato basil dipping sauce - not bad!

The Cynic in Me

2005-08-15T12:12:00.000-04:00

I have been so ecstatic watching my closest friends take that next step in life...i.e. get engaged or get married. It brings me such joy to see them find that perfect someone and decide to spend the rest of their lives with them.

But as happy as I am for them, I do not share that desire. In fact, I've become more and more disenchanted with the concept of love and marriage as time goes on. I am not excited by love or the prospect of marriage or the idea of "forever after".

Don't get me wrong - I have experienced the extreme highs of passion, puppy love, infatuation, and just being IN LOVE. It was great - the emotional power of what I felt was blinding, furious, and all consuming. But....not to sound overly cynical and don't laugh...I'm just so over it!

The thought of having to spend the rest of my life with the same person really annoys me. I think, because of the way i've grown up, I've become too independent...almost to a fault. It's great to have a companion in life....but i dont think i can deal with the same person for the rest of my life.

Another thing is...along with all the engagemetns and marriages, I am hearing about the divorces, the cheating, the unhappiness, the death of love. I truly believe that it is inevitable... and Marriage is man's way to elevate a relationship to a more sacred level in an attempt to make it last forever. But reality is that, it rarely does, if ever.

Perhaps I am talking out of my ass. But I've been feeling this way for a while. Maybe its just prolonged PMS.
My views on love and marraige have taken several drastic turns over the past few years. I guess its all part of growing up.

Long Island Wine

2005-08-14T21:45:00.000-04:00

2001 Osprey's Dominion Cabernet Franc - Spicy and rich- all for $17.99.
Who would have thought LI wine could be so yummy?

n.b. - tastes better aerated or the next day.

another annoying symptom of old age...

2005-08-13T03:45:00.000-04:00

I went to bed early today at around 11pm and now i'm up. WHy ? well i wake up every 4 hours to pee. so generally that means 1-2 times a nite. ANd tonite, after I peed, i realized my stomach was growling. So i had to get up and make something to eat. *sigh*. So here I am up at 3:45am and i have to get up early tomorrwo too get ready for christine's wedding. *sigh*

i'm so superficial

2005-08-12T15:22:00.000-04:00

I don't know what I would do if my future husband (you know, the imaginary one i have) ever got fat. Call me superficial, but I need to be attracted to my mate.

Actually i remember when M got really chubby. It was during the height of our relationship and you kno what they say...happiness makes you fat. I wasn't very happy about it. But didnt voice my disdain. I nagged him to go to the gym and eat better. I didn't let him buy doritos for the longest time. But i really worried that he was going to really blow up for a while. He went from 170lbs to like almost over 200lbs! Scary shit. Thank goodness he started working out and got lean again.

Everyone is allowed to let themselves go but only to an extent. I guess i can say this since I've never been pregnant and still work out regularly and have only gained slight poundage in the past 15 years (like maybe 5lbs). I'm sure ill be less superficial when I'm 40 and unable to ever shed the poundage from my 2 kids no matter how hard i tried.

I know alot of couples...once they got engaged or serious, they both really let themselves go. And I mean REALLY let themselves go. It's almost shocking how much and how fast people can balloon. I REALLY have no desire to ever do that. I don't care how many hours I'm working. I'm going to put in at least 20 minute a day of some kind of exercise.

Don't I sound like one of those assholes who tell their wives that they're too fat and unattractive? Sometimes i think that I really should have been born a man.

i really hate alcohol

2005-08-12T12:48:00.000-04:00

I went to a work function last nite - all paid-for drinks. So i end up getting sloshed and today I am hating myself.

I can't believe that two years ago, i used to do this on a regular basis. Only two years ago!!! I would go out EVERY thurs, get trashed, then go out again Friday and Sat and do the same thing. I swear, all the alcohol i've consumed in my life time has permamently impaired my brain.

But i've traded my long island ice teas to become a complete wino. I tell myself, "It's healthy for you."

I need to detox for the next two months. NOw that I'm older, I'm so insanely attuned to my body - I dunno whats going on but if i even feel A LITTLE off, it bothers me. I need my eight hours of sleep, my eight glasses of water a day, my multivitamin, and my 1 hour of exercise, or else I feel like total shit.

Not only that, I recently started wearing a knee brace to do kickboxing.

Old age has definitely set in. *sigh*

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2005-08-08T09:02:00.000-04:00

on the metro north to white plains for court:.( sleepy

2005-08-05T00:06:00.000-04:00

omg this is the coolest thing ever. ijust blogged and took this photo from my phone!

Taking the Plunge with the Sony Ericsson p910a

2005-07-28T12:15:00.000-04:00

Gasp....
I just ordered this online at a retail price of $600. I debated this vs. the Treo 650 for over 4 months. What the Treo 650 lacks in memory, the Sony Ericsson more than makes up. Tho not as cool looking, hopefully it'll be well worth the money.

Can't wait to get it!!